Since I'm back in my Batman Beyond era (apparently), I shared snippets of a crossover that I once wrote with... well, a lot of things, but mostly L. Frank Baum's Oz books.
Artie and I had such a great time watching Young Justice together – largely because of its mind control storylines – that, a couple of months ago, I decided to show them an episode of another DC superhero series that I remembered loving for similar reasons: Batman Beyond’s “Spellbound.” They seemed to like it, so we agreed to start the series from the beginning, and are now finished with Season 1. I always enjoy hearing Artie’s media criticism, even – sometimes especially – when they’re criticizing media that has nostalgic value for me. We’ve already had some chewy conversations about how this show addresses gender, among other topics (I can appreciate a high school plotline in which The Real Supervillain Is Toxic Masculinity, which could apply to both “Golem” and “The Winning Edge”), and groaned about how much the cars on the show resemble Cybertrucks.
But, in a twist which will surprise absolutely nobody, “Spellbound” remains my favorite episode of the first season. Not all storylines in Batman Beyond take the Buffy the Vampire Slayer route of exploring adolescent drama through the fantastical, but some of them do, and I think this episode is among the ones that does it best… although, it must be said, I might be biased. In both this Tumblr post and this Tuesday Top Five list, I talked about the formative impact of a story in which teenagers were mentally manipulated by an adult whom they should have been able to trust. I can blame this episode, partially if not entirely, for the grip that this narrative premise had on my imagination from my own teenage years – when I deeply resented authority figures’ attempts to get inside my head – to the present day.
Ira Billings, a.k.a. Spellbinder, isn’t dangerous only because he has access to science fiction technology that traps people in illusions of giant bugs. He’s dangerous because he works in a high school and has positioned himself as someone whom young people can trust with their secrets, and someone whose authority and insights other adults trust in turn. The opening sequence, in which he lures a teenage girl to the edge of a cliff, is scary. The subsequent scene, in which he tells the police that Chelsea fabricated that encounter for attention, is scarier.
Spellbinder does return in future episodes, but he’s no longer the school counselor, and I told Artie recently that I wish previous episodes had given us a glimpse of his civilian identity – perhaps even as a somewhat sympathetic figure – before we saw him in costume. We talked about how he might have approached various teens who made Questionable Decisions in earlier episodes, and then I asked, “Am I going to have to write a Five Things fic [featuring different students’ sessions with Dr. Billings]?” and Artie said “HELL YEAH” and I admitted that I did not have “return to Batman Beyond fanfic” on my 2025 Bingo card. The last time I wrote about any of these characters, I didn’t even know that “fanfic” was a term that existed. At least, if I pursue this story idea, there’s a chance that more than two people will read it… but I might be tempted to pursue it even without that possibility.
But, in a twist which will surprise absolutely nobody, “Spellbound” remains my favorite episode of the first season. Not all storylines in Batman Beyond take the Buffy the Vampire Slayer route of exploring adolescent drama through the fantastical, but some of them do, and I think this episode is among the ones that does it best… although, it must be said, I might be biased. In both this Tumblr post and this Tuesday Top Five list, I talked about the formative impact of a story in which teenagers were mentally manipulated by an adult whom they should have been able to trust. I can blame this episode, partially if not entirely, for the grip that this narrative premise had on my imagination from my own teenage years – when I deeply resented authority figures’ attempts to get inside my head – to the present day.
Ira Billings, a.k.a. Spellbinder, isn’t dangerous only because he has access to science fiction technology that traps people in illusions of giant bugs. He’s dangerous because he works in a high school and has positioned himself as someone whom young people can trust with their secrets, and someone whose authority and insights other adults trust in turn. The opening sequence, in which he lures a teenage girl to the edge of a cliff, is scary. The subsequent scene, in which he tells the police that Chelsea fabricated that encounter for attention, is scarier.
Spellbinder does return in future episodes, but he’s no longer the school counselor, and I told Artie recently that I wish previous episodes had given us a glimpse of his civilian identity – perhaps even as a somewhat sympathetic figure – before we saw him in costume. We talked about how he might have approached various teens who made Questionable Decisions in earlier episodes, and then I asked, “Am I going to have to write a Five Things fic [featuring different students’ sessions with Dr. Billings]?” and Artie said “HELL YEAH” and I admitted that I did not have “return to Batman Beyond fanfic” on my 2025 Bingo card. The last time I wrote about any of these characters, I didn’t even know that “fanfic” was a term that existed. At least, if I pursue this story idea, there’s a chance that more than two people will read it… but I might be tempted to pursue it even without that possibility.
Press Start
Jun. 30th, 2025 06:53 amRecently, and very coincidentally, I read two books about Video Games That Brainwash The Youth. One of them was End of Watch, the final book in Stephen King’s Bill Hodges trilogy. I started the series because one of the supporting characters is the star of a later book that I enjoyed a lot, even though I don’t usually gravitate toward crime fiction. End of Watch – in ways that I suspect might alienate fans of that genre – leans much harder into speculative fiction than its predecessors. I’m not sure whether it’s a good book, but I can tell you that I devoured all nearly-500 pages of it within a few days, because it gave me exactly what I needed from a story about possession and mind control. (Possibly, it appealed to my inner 13-year-old, who would totally have written a story about a handheld video game that brainwashes people.)
The other book was Collin Armstrong’s Polybius, which is based on an urban legend about an arcade game that appeared in the 1980s and had a sinister effect on its players before vanishing just as quickly. In Armstrong’s novel, the game mesmerizes anybody who plays or even looks at it too long, reducing them to their most violent and/or paranoid impulses. Andi, an engineering nerd who is largely immune due to her colorblindness, and her classmate and love interest, Ro, have to figure out how to destroy the game and reverse its effects before it destroys their small town entirely.
I picked up this book because the urban legend at its center fascinates me, and although some of the marketing referenced The Walking Dead as well as Stranger Things – so I can’t pretend that I didn’t know what I was getting into – I hoped that the story would be as much about the mythology around the game as what it does to players in this fictional world. Since I’m not a fan of zombie media or other stories that consist mostly of human beings going feral and trying to attack each other, I am probably not the target audience for the story that we actually did get. I was much more interested in the revelation about why the game was created. ( Which I suppose is a spoiler. )
If you’re interested in the Polybius myth as a myth, this video essay delves into the rumors about the game and the videographer’s attempts to discover whether there was any truth to them.
The other book was Collin Armstrong’s Polybius, which is based on an urban legend about an arcade game that appeared in the 1980s and had a sinister effect on its players before vanishing just as quickly. In Armstrong’s novel, the game mesmerizes anybody who plays or even looks at it too long, reducing them to their most violent and/or paranoid impulses. Andi, an engineering nerd who is largely immune due to her colorblindness, and her classmate and love interest, Ro, have to figure out how to destroy the game and reverse its effects before it destroys their small town entirely.
I picked up this book because the urban legend at its center fascinates me, and although some of the marketing referenced The Walking Dead as well as Stranger Things – so I can’t pretend that I didn’t know what I was getting into – I hoped that the story would be as much about the mythology around the game as what it does to players in this fictional world. Since I’m not a fan of zombie media or other stories that consist mostly of human beings going feral and trying to attack each other, I am probably not the target audience for the story that we actually did get. I was much more interested in the revelation about why the game was created. ( Which I suppose is a spoiler. )
If you’re interested in the Polybius myth as a myth, this video essay delves into the rumors about the game and the videographer’s attempts to discover whether there was any truth to them.
I don’t remember when and how I first learned that the Indigo Girls were queer icons, but it was sometime after I first started listening to their music (and before I had more than the slightest hint that I myself might not be straight). They were, first and foremost, the group who performed some of the songs that Older Sister taught me, and whose CDs kept us, Younger Sister, and sometimes our parents company on road trips. At some point, I also started associating their lyrics with some of the stories that I was working on at the time, or that we were working on together (a habit that continued once I entered online fandom and started using lyrics to title my fics). Much later, I also learned that Amy Ray and Emily Saliers were and are involved in activism for a variety of causes, including queer rights. And my family and I were lucky enough to see the group in concert in 2004.
At first, I thought about creating a list of my top five Indigo Girls songs, but I think that would be prohibitively challenging: there are just too many of them! Instead, here are my favorite tracks from their first five albums – the ones that helped to form the soundtrack of my childhood.
1. “Strange Fire” (Strange Fire, 1987)
I first heard this song on the concert album 1200 Curfews. I remember reading somewhere – maybe in the liner notes for that CD, maybe from a fan – that Amy wrote this song about her relationship with the Christian Church, but I don’t think that interpretation is necessary in order to appreciate the powerful lyrics, the melody, or the way that the harmonies build throughout.
2. “Secure Yourself” (Indigo Girls, 1989)
I think that this is one of the songs that I learned from Older Sister before I heard the recorded version. The final line, “Now we all are chosen ones,” resonated deeply with me as a young, socially awkward reader and storyteller who had tired very quickly of Chosen One stories. (“Closer to Fine,” which opens the same album, is probably more well-known, definitely more fun to sing, and I love that one, too. I just don’t love it in the same way.)
3. “Hand Me Downs” (Nomads Indians Saints, 1990)
No question about this one. The urgency and background drumbeat that kicks in on “...and you’ve become the saint somehow” makes me catch my breath every time.
4. “Ghost” (Rites of Passage, 1992)
Or, as my mom calls it almost every time she brings it up, “that one about the Mississippi being mighty.” (“Galileo” and “Love Will “Come To You” are also strong contenders from the same album.)
5. “Dead Man’s Hill” (Swamp Ophelia, 1994)
Swamp Ophelia has such a strong concentration of songs that I absolutely adore, that my choice is almost random, based on what I’ve been listening to the most recently.
If you’re an Indigo Girls fan, what are some of your favorites? Whether you are or not, do you recall any songs that captured your heart or imagination before you knew who originally performed them? What are they?
At first, I thought about creating a list of my top five Indigo Girls songs, but I think that would be prohibitively challenging: there are just too many of them! Instead, here are my favorite tracks from their first five albums – the ones that helped to form the soundtrack of my childhood.
1. “Strange Fire” (Strange Fire, 1987)
I first heard this song on the concert album 1200 Curfews. I remember reading somewhere – maybe in the liner notes for that CD, maybe from a fan – that Amy wrote this song about her relationship with the Christian Church, but I don’t think that interpretation is necessary in order to appreciate the powerful lyrics, the melody, or the way that the harmonies build throughout.
2. “Secure Yourself” (Indigo Girls, 1989)
I think that this is one of the songs that I learned from Older Sister before I heard the recorded version. The final line, “Now we all are chosen ones,” resonated deeply with me as a young, socially awkward reader and storyteller who had tired very quickly of Chosen One stories. (“Closer to Fine,” which opens the same album, is probably more well-known, definitely more fun to sing, and I love that one, too. I just don’t love it in the same way.)
3. “Hand Me Downs” (Nomads Indians Saints, 1990)
No question about this one. The urgency and background drumbeat that kicks in on “...and you’ve become the saint somehow” makes me catch my breath every time.
4. “Ghost” (Rites of Passage, 1992)
Or, as my mom calls it almost every time she brings it up, “that one about the Mississippi being mighty.” (“Galileo” and “Love Will “Come To You” are also strong contenders from the same album.)
5. “Dead Man’s Hill” (Swamp Ophelia, 1994)
Swamp Ophelia has such a strong concentration of songs that I absolutely adore, that my choice is almost random, based on what I’ve been listening to the most recently.
If you’re an Indigo Girls fan, what are some of your favorites? Whether you are or not, do you recall any songs that captured your heart or imagination before you knew who originally performed them? What are they?
I shared some of my thoughts about Marvel's Runaways, both upon my first reading and now.
(I have yet to watch the TV adaptation, despite having hoped for many years that we'd get to see one. Stars, can't do it, not today, etc.)
(I have yet to watch the TV adaptation, despite having hoped for many years that we'd get to see one. Stars, can't do it, not today, etc.)
Tuesday Top Five: Pride on the Pages
Jun. 17th, 2025 09:37 pmHere are five of my favorite Young Adult books with queer protagonists to be published within the last ten years. I am very lucky to live in a world where I had a hard time choosing.
1. Juliet Takes a Breath by Gabby Rivera (2016)
After coming out to her close-knit Puerto Rican family, Juliet travels across the country for an internship with a feminist writer whom she idolizes, leading to a transformative summer that shatters some of her illusions but gives her a better understanding of her own identity, creativity, and strength.
As far as this book is concerned, I echo pretty much everything that![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
skygiants said in this 2017 review. Juliet is a wonderful narrator, and her experiences with white hippie feminism and with the kindred spirits that she finds among her fellow queers of color read as very authentic even to someone with only secondhand understanding of a lot of those communities and philosophies. Rivera is just that good at conjuring settings and subcultures. I love how complicated all of the relationships in this book are, and the sense of possibility with which the story ultimately leaves both heroine and audience.
2. Sawkill Girls by Claire Legrand (2018)
Young women have been vanishing from the island of Sawkill Rock for many years. Zoey’s best friend was one of them. New girl Marion’s sister might be next. Popular Val and her family have played their own horrifying role in the disappearances. But these three girls, working together despite their pain and secrets and distrust, might be the only ones who can stop them.
The only speculative fiction work on this list, Sawkill Girls is a wonderfully atmospheric horror story with memorably complex relationships between the three main characters. Zoey’s asexuality is only one of the reasons why she feels like a perpetual outsider, while the attraction between Marion and Val is shadowed by Val’s connection to the island’s supernatural secrets. If you like scary stories set in close-knit communities, and books about super-powered teen girls who fight evil forces, you might want to give this one a try.
3. Imogen, Obviously by Becky Albertalli (2023)
A chronic people-pleaser, Imogen often finds herself scrambling to be the perfect straight ally to her queer sister and closest friends, even when her efforts (such as the time that she spends online, reading strangers’ arguments in order to figure out whether she’s “allowed” to enjoy a movie like But I’m A Cheerleader) cause her excessive amounts of stress. When a college visit leads to an unexpected flirtation with another girl, Imogen has to overcome her insecurities for a chance at real happiness, not only with Tessa but with herself.
I liked Simon Vs. the Homo Sapiens Agenda and Leah on the Offbeat, but Imogen’s journey resonated with me even more deeply as someone who still second-guesses her own identity – and tends to interpret online discourse in the most self-critical way possible – even in adulthood. Also, the dialogue and characterizations pop off the page, and Imogen’s relationships with her family and friends are given as much weight and texture as the romance. (I also found her yearning for inclusion in a potential friend group to be Extremely Relatable Content.) In particular, her longtime friend turned antagonist, Gretchen, could come across as a mean-spirited caricature of a smug Tumblr-poisoned social justice warrior, but Albertalli is careful to present valid reasons for why Gretchen is the way she that she is, and also why she and Imogen have remained friends up until this point, without suggesting that Imogen owes her forgiveness.
At the time of writing, I’ve just finished reading the new companion novel, Amelia, If Only, and I am happy to report that it is equally delightful.
4. Emmett by L.C. Rosen (2023)
Emmett isn’t interested in a romantic relationship before he turns twenty-five (and has convinced himself that his reluctance has nothing to do with the fear of having his heart broken), but that won’t stop him from trying to find a boyfriend for Harrison, his friend and occasional hookup. What begins as a matchmaking mission, with all of the humor and angst and misunderstanding that implies, leads Emmett to question what he really wants and what he’s willing to risk for love.
Having never read Jane Austen’s Emma (or seen Clueless), I still enjoyed this modern take on the story, although if you’re not interested in reading about relationship drama among glaringly privileged teens, this might not be the book for you. Emmett might be insufferable, but the narrative recognizes that he’s insufferable, and his character arc involves a reconciliation between the “nice” persona that he projects and the genuinely kind and decent man that he’s capable of becoming. The slow-burn romance is lovely, and will probably appeal to readers who enjoy watching a protagonist slowly figure out what they themselves have known for many chapters, but – similarly to Imogen – I was equally charmed by the relationships among Emmett’s social circle, as well as his loving but fraught relationship with his father and their close bond with his late mother’s best friends. It’s the kind of intertwined family experience that I remember very fondly from my own formative years.
5. The No-Girlfriend Rule by Christen Randall (2024)
When Hollis’s boyfriend excludes her from hisDungeons & Dragons Secrets & Sorcery campaign, she joins a diverse all-girl gaming group in order to experience the activity that means so much to him and his friends. She doesn’t expect to find true friends of her own, to enjoy the love story that develops between her paladin character and Aini’s bard, or to discover a spark between herself and Aini outside their imaginary world.
I’ve never gotten involved in tabletop role-playing, but I’ve done some LARP, and dabbled in online role-play, and I have friends with plenty of experience in all three. Randall fully captures the creative and emotional synergy and excitement that friends can create when they’re telling a story together (and the confusion that can arise when the lines blur between in-character and out-of-character relationships). It’s aspirational in all the best ways.
1. Juliet Takes a Breath by Gabby Rivera (2016)
After coming out to her close-knit Puerto Rican family, Juliet travels across the country for an internship with a feminist writer whom she idolizes, leading to a transformative summer that shatters some of her illusions but gives her a better understanding of her own identity, creativity, and strength.
As far as this book is concerned, I echo pretty much everything that
skygiants said in this 2017 review. Juliet is a wonderful narrator, and her experiences with white hippie feminism and with the kindred spirits that she finds among her fellow queers of color read as very authentic even to someone with only secondhand understanding of a lot of those communities and philosophies. Rivera is just that good at conjuring settings and subcultures. I love how complicated all of the relationships in this book are, and the sense of possibility with which the story ultimately leaves both heroine and audience.2. Sawkill Girls by Claire Legrand (2018)
Young women have been vanishing from the island of Sawkill Rock for many years. Zoey’s best friend was one of them. New girl Marion’s sister might be next. Popular Val and her family have played their own horrifying role in the disappearances. But these three girls, working together despite their pain and secrets and distrust, might be the only ones who can stop them.
The only speculative fiction work on this list, Sawkill Girls is a wonderfully atmospheric horror story with memorably complex relationships between the three main characters. Zoey’s asexuality is only one of the reasons why she feels like a perpetual outsider, while the attraction between Marion and Val is shadowed by Val’s connection to the island’s supernatural secrets. If you like scary stories set in close-knit communities, and books about super-powered teen girls who fight evil forces, you might want to give this one a try.
3. Imogen, Obviously by Becky Albertalli (2023)
A chronic people-pleaser, Imogen often finds herself scrambling to be the perfect straight ally to her queer sister and closest friends, even when her efforts (such as the time that she spends online, reading strangers’ arguments in order to figure out whether she’s “allowed” to enjoy a movie like But I’m A Cheerleader) cause her excessive amounts of stress. When a college visit leads to an unexpected flirtation with another girl, Imogen has to overcome her insecurities for a chance at real happiness, not only with Tessa but with herself.
I liked Simon Vs. the Homo Sapiens Agenda and Leah on the Offbeat, but Imogen’s journey resonated with me even more deeply as someone who still second-guesses her own identity – and tends to interpret online discourse in the most self-critical way possible – even in adulthood. Also, the dialogue and characterizations pop off the page, and Imogen’s relationships with her family and friends are given as much weight and texture as the romance. (I also found her yearning for inclusion in a potential friend group to be Extremely Relatable Content.) In particular, her longtime friend turned antagonist, Gretchen, could come across as a mean-spirited caricature of a smug Tumblr-poisoned social justice warrior, but Albertalli is careful to present valid reasons for why Gretchen is the way she that she is, and also why she and Imogen have remained friends up until this point, without suggesting that Imogen owes her forgiveness.
At the time of writing, I’ve just finished reading the new companion novel, Amelia, If Only, and I am happy to report that it is equally delightful.
4. Emmett by L.C. Rosen (2023)
Emmett isn’t interested in a romantic relationship before he turns twenty-five (and has convinced himself that his reluctance has nothing to do with the fear of having his heart broken), but that won’t stop him from trying to find a boyfriend for Harrison, his friend and occasional hookup. What begins as a matchmaking mission, with all of the humor and angst and misunderstanding that implies, leads Emmett to question what he really wants and what he’s willing to risk for love.
Having never read Jane Austen’s Emma (or seen Clueless), I still enjoyed this modern take on the story, although if you’re not interested in reading about relationship drama among glaringly privileged teens, this might not be the book for you. Emmett might be insufferable, but the narrative recognizes that he’s insufferable, and his character arc involves a reconciliation between the “nice” persona that he projects and the genuinely kind and decent man that he’s capable of becoming. The slow-burn romance is lovely, and will probably appeal to readers who enjoy watching a protagonist slowly figure out what they themselves have known for many chapters, but – similarly to Imogen – I was equally charmed by the relationships among Emmett’s social circle, as well as his loving but fraught relationship with his father and their close bond with his late mother’s best friends. It’s the kind of intertwined family experience that I remember very fondly from my own formative years.
5. The No-Girlfriend Rule by Christen Randall (2024)
When Hollis’s boyfriend excludes her from his
I’ve never gotten involved in tabletop role-playing, but I’ve done some LARP, and dabbled in online role-play, and I have friends with plenty of experience in all three. Randall fully captures the creative and emotional synergy and excitement that friends can create when they’re telling a story together (and the confusion that can arise when the lines blur between in-character and out-of-character relationships). It’s aspirational in all the best ways.
Thank Blog It's Friday
Jun. 13th, 2025 08:02 amWearing: A long denim skirt and a blue t-shirt featuring a rainbow and a unicorn reading a book, with the words "The Library is Open."
Reading: I recently read two books about how Video Games Brainwash The Youths, and I have Thoughts, which I hope to share in a separate post.
Writing: I haven't responded to any of the prompts yet, but Sapphic Summer is happening again this year.
Planning: Working today and tomorrow morning! My housemate invited me to Rocky Horror tomorrow evening but I'm not sure whether I want to go; I'm not strongly attached to Rocky Horror but it would be Fun Thing To Do With Friend.
What about you?
Reading: I recently read two books about how Video Games Brainwash The Youths, and I have Thoughts, which I hope to share in a separate post.
Writing: I haven't responded to any of the prompts yet, but Sapphic Summer is happening again this year.
Planning: Working today and tomorrow morning! My housemate invited me to Rocky Horror tomorrow evening but I'm not sure whether I want to go; I'm not strongly attached to Rocky Horror but it would be Fun Thing To Do With Friend.
What about you?
I shared what I once imagined to be a stereotypical hero/villain confrontation, which involved mind control because of course it did.
Tuesday Top Five: This Is A Strobbery!
Jun. 10th, 2025 10:41 pmI went strawberry picking over the weekend with my family. Here are some of my potential plans for the berries that I carted back to Boston.
1. Oatmeal topping! I did this yesterday and today. Tomorrow, I might mix in some banana and/or peanut butter as well.
2. Lemonade flavoring!
3. Cupcakes! I am thinking of filling the cakes with lemon curd that I made a few weeks ago, and using the strawberries to flavor the icing.
4. Bread pudding!
5. PIES. Maybe I'll combine the strawberries with peaches or rhubarb.
Do you like strawberries? What are some of your favorite ways to use them?
1. Oatmeal topping! I did this yesterday and today. Tomorrow, I might mix in some banana and/or peanut butter as well.
2. Lemonade flavoring!
3. Cupcakes! I am thinking of filling the cakes with lemon curd that I made a few weeks ago, and using the strawberries to flavor the icing.
4. Bread pudding!
5. PIES. Maybe I'll combine the strawberries with peaches or rhubarb.
Do you like strawberries? What are some of your favorite ways to use them?
Thank Blog It's Friday
Jun. 6th, 2025 12:17 pmWearing: Denim shorts, blue tank top, and a button-down shirt printed with foxes.
Reading: I finished Immaculate Conception by Ling Ling Huang. It has elements of horror and sci-fi, like her first book, but that one seemed to lean more into the former while this one leaned more into the latter. And although there were very satisfying amounts of Mind Stuff in Immaculate Conception, and I think it did a good job of examining the art industry and dysfunctional friendships, I think that I still liked Natural Beauty more.
Writing: Still, alas, between projects!
Planning: I'm spending a couple of days with my parents, and we'll hopefully pick strawberries with my sister and cousins.
What about you?
Reading: I finished Immaculate Conception by Ling Ling Huang. It has elements of horror and sci-fi, like her first book, but that one seemed to lean more into the former while this one leaned more into the latter. And although there were very satisfying amounts of Mind Stuff in Immaculate Conception, and I think it did a good job of examining the art industry and dysfunctional friendships, I think that I still liked Natural Beauty more.
Writing: Still, alas, between projects!
Planning: I'm spending a couple of days with my parents, and we'll hopefully pick strawberries with my sister and cousins.
What about you?
I wrote about some of my adventures in crossover fanfic and shared a partial draft of a fic in which Jekyll's Miranda Callendar investigated the succubus-run fashion company from The Middleman after noticing a resemblance between their models and Mr. Hyde.
In which Nevanna overthinks children’s cartoons, in ways that probably won’t make sense unless you’ve watched the Craig of the Creek prequel movie.
( Go forth, following dreams! )
( Go forth, following dreams! )
Tuesday Top Five: Small Screen Pride
Jun. 3rd, 2025 11:15 pmPride Month has begun, so I’m here to share some of my favorite queer characters from (live action) television.
1. Tara Maclay (Buffy the Vampire Slayer)
Although it’s easy to dismiss Tara as “only” a love interest for Willow (who is also a great character!), there’s a lot to love and admire about her in her own right: she’s brave and wise and compassionate, and her story beautifully demonstrates the show’s enduring theme of found family. I am one of many, many fans who wish that she’d survived the series, and I was thrilled to recognize both the deliberate use of her name and a cameo appearance by Amber Benson in the recent horror movie I Saw The TV Glow. Tara was also the focus of a tie-in prequel that was published a couple of years ago, although I haven’t read it.
2. Jack Harkness (Doctor Who/Torchwood)
I was delighted by Jack from the very first time that I saw him in “The Empty Child.”andrastewhite once pointed out, in a LiveJournal/Dreamwidth post that I can no longer find, that although charming rogues with hearts of gold have never been a rarity in science fiction, Jack stood out as a Doctor Who companion in particular because of his previous experience traveling the universe, and, of course, his uninhibited sexuality. I adored his relationships with the Doctor and Rose. And although the writing on Torchwood was often extremely uneven and sometimes seemed to be coasting on the memorable elements of other shows, Jack’s protective love for his team was always a joy to watch, and the devotion between him and Ianto was a noteworthy step forward for sci-fi action media (even if, like Willow and Tara’s story, it ended tragically).
3. Miranda Callendar (Jekyll)
Steven Moffat has (and deserves) a dubious track record when it comes to writing female characters, but I think he did a decent job with the ladies of Jekyll. Miranda – a private detective who becomes entangled in the drama between the modern-day Jekyll and Hyde – is smart and stubborn and resourceful and funny, and her bond with her wife and business partner, Min, is clear in every scene. I would watch an entire show about the two of them as supernatural investigators.
4. Eric Effiong (Sex Education)
Eric is one of the most lovable characters in a varied and engaging cast. He could have been nothing more than a fabulous accessory to his (sometimes insufferable) straight white best friend’s storyline, but increasingly layered writing and Ncuti Gatwa’s remarkable performance allow him to transcend that stereotype magnificently. I like that Eric is mostly secure in his identity and aesthetic when the story starts, but – like any teenager – he’s on a journey to figure out who he wants and what kind of person he wants to be, and his sexuality and religion and family and friendships all play significant and interconnected parts in that journey.
5. Theodora Crain (The Haunting of Hill House)
I have yet to read Shirley Jackson’s original novel, but when I watched Mike Flanagan’s screen adaptation (which I understand is very different from the source material), I remarked to a couple of my friends, “of course the damaged psychic lady is my favorite.” I love Theo’s snark, the contrast between her accomplished professional identity and her messy personal issues, her determination to help children who have been harmed, and the way that she both fears and yearns for intimacy. I was so happy for her at the end of the series.
Honorable mentions: Nomi Marks and Amanita Caplan (Sense8), Anissa Pierce (Black Lightning), Sara Lance (Legends of Tomorrow)
I haven't finished watching any of those shows yet but I love these characters based on what I've seen!
1. Tara Maclay (Buffy the Vampire Slayer)
Although it’s easy to dismiss Tara as “only” a love interest for Willow (who is also a great character!), there’s a lot to love and admire about her in her own right: she’s brave and wise and compassionate, and her story beautifully demonstrates the show’s enduring theme of found family. I am one of many, many fans who wish that she’d survived the series, and I was thrilled to recognize both the deliberate use of her name and a cameo appearance by Amber Benson in the recent horror movie I Saw The TV Glow. Tara was also the focus of a tie-in prequel that was published a couple of years ago, although I haven’t read it.
2. Jack Harkness (Doctor Who/Torchwood)
I was delighted by Jack from the very first time that I saw him in “The Empty Child.”
andrastewhite once pointed out, in a LiveJournal/Dreamwidth post that I can no longer find, that although charming rogues with hearts of gold have never been a rarity in science fiction, Jack stood out as a Doctor Who companion in particular because of his previous experience traveling the universe, and, of course, his uninhibited sexuality. I adored his relationships with the Doctor and Rose. And although the writing on Torchwood was often extremely uneven and sometimes seemed to be coasting on the memorable elements of other shows, Jack’s protective love for his team was always a joy to watch, and the devotion between him and Ianto was a noteworthy step forward for sci-fi action media (even if, like Willow and Tara’s story, it ended tragically).3. Miranda Callendar (Jekyll)
Steven Moffat has (and deserves) a dubious track record when it comes to writing female characters, but I think he did a decent job with the ladies of Jekyll. Miranda – a private detective who becomes entangled in the drama between the modern-day Jekyll and Hyde – is smart and stubborn and resourceful and funny, and her bond with her wife and business partner, Min, is clear in every scene. I would watch an entire show about the two of them as supernatural investigators.
4. Eric Effiong (Sex Education)
Eric is one of the most lovable characters in a varied and engaging cast. He could have been nothing more than a fabulous accessory to his (sometimes insufferable) straight white best friend’s storyline, but increasingly layered writing and Ncuti Gatwa’s remarkable performance allow him to transcend that stereotype magnificently. I like that Eric is mostly secure in his identity and aesthetic when the story starts, but – like any teenager – he’s on a journey to figure out who he wants and what kind of person he wants to be, and his sexuality and religion and family and friendships all play significant and interconnected parts in that journey.
5. Theodora Crain (The Haunting of Hill House)
I have yet to read Shirley Jackson’s original novel, but when I watched Mike Flanagan’s screen adaptation (which I understand is very different from the source material), I remarked to a couple of my friends, “of course the damaged psychic lady is my favorite.” I love Theo’s snark, the contrast between her accomplished professional identity and her messy personal issues, her determination to help children who have been harmed, and the way that she both fears and yearns for intimacy. I was so happy for her at the end of the series.
Honorable mentions: Nomi Marks and Amanita Caplan (Sense8), Anissa Pierce (Black Lightning), Sara Lance (Legends of Tomorrow)
I haven't finished watching any of those shows yet but I love these characters based on what I've seen!
Thank Blog It's Friday
May. 30th, 2025 07:58 pmWearing: A dress printed with cats wearing neckties or sunglasses. Today's storytime theme was "Clothing." I read this book in a pirate voice.
Reading: I finished Blazing Eye Sees All, which was excellent, and am about to start Immaculate Conception by Ling Ling Huang. Her first book, Natural Beauty, blew me away, and her new one seems like it'll be even more up my alley. I also recently read a fantastic essay by Jude Doyle about Watchmen and Gritty Reimaginings in general.
Writing: Still between projects!
Planning: I'm going to a friend's Pride brunch tomorrow! Planning to start a batch of mini quiches as soon as I finish this post. On Sunday, I'm volunteering for a few hours in the afternoon, but hope to attend at least one craft market before or after.
What about you?
Reading: I finished Blazing Eye Sees All, which was excellent, and am about to start Immaculate Conception by Ling Ling Huang. Her first book, Natural Beauty, blew me away, and her new one seems like it'll be even more up my alley. I also recently read a fantastic essay by Jude Doyle about Watchmen and Gritty Reimaginings in general.
Writing: Still between projects!
Planning: I'm going to a friend's Pride brunch tomorrow! Planning to start a batch of mini quiches as soon as I finish this post. On Sunday, I'm volunteering for a few hours in the afternoon, but hope to attend at least one craft market before or after.
What about you?
I wrote about one of my favorite toxic, manipulative fictional relationships: Alex and Roger from Tamora Pierce's Tortall series.
Tuesday Top Five: Guilty Pleasure Books
May. 27th, 2025 09:18 pm“Guilty pleasure” can be a loaded term, especially when it comes to media consumption. When compiling this list, I avoided titles that fell into the following categories.
A. The pleasure of the book is “guilty” because I am not its target audience (children or young adults).
B. The pleasure of the book is “guilty” because I am its target audience and we’re socially conditioned to think of fiction marketed toward women as frivolous.
C. The book was good but the author Did A Problematic Thing (or was Insufficiently Marginalized to tell the story they were telling). Those conversations aren’t without value, but I’m much more interested in discussing the actual text.
Instead, I decided to look at titles that I enjoy even though I disagree with something fundamental about the creative choices that went into them.
( Some examples! )
A. The pleasure of the book is “guilty” because I am not its target audience (children or young adults).
B. The pleasure of the book is “guilty” because I am its target audience and we’re socially conditioned to think of fiction marketed toward women as frivolous.
C. The book was good but the author Did A Problematic Thing (or was Insufficiently Marginalized to tell the story they were telling). Those conversations aren’t without value, but I’m much more interested in discussing the actual text.
Instead, I decided to look at titles that I enjoy even though I disagree with something fundamental about the creative choices that went into them.
( Some examples! )
I shared a snippet of my notes from library school, which retroactively became very funny when I started contributing to a vampire AU about office politics years later.
Tuesday Top Five: A Whole Song and Dance
May. 20th, 2025 10:03 pmInspired by one of my favorite podcasts (This Ends At Prom) celebrating “May-usical Month,” I decided to list my top five songs from live-action musicals. Perhaps sacrilegiously, I haven’t necessarily seen all of the shows in question – although I have a lot of respect for musical theater as a medium, much of my understanding comes from cultural or social osmosis – but I like the songs on their own.
1. “Nobody’s Side” (Chess)
My summer camp staged Chess during my last year, and while I thought that the story was pretty interesting, it was the music that especially stuck in my memory, especially this number. Not only is it lyrically and musically compelling, but it has some strong fandom associations for me, including the use of one line to title a crossover fic (“No Contract Truly Signed”) in a series that preoccupied me for the better part of a year.
2. “Confrontation” (Jekyll & Hyde)
I’ve seen this musical on stage, as well as a recording of the David Hasselhoff production, but I primarily associate this particular song with my friend Brad at karaoke gatherings.
3. “For Good” (Wicked)
My initial connection with this song – which has made me teary-eyed more than one time – was likewise through fandom: a friend of mine connected it strongly to the Ninth Doctor/Jack/Rose OT3 in Doctor Who, and when we listened to it together, I agreed. It also inspired Nancy Werlin’s Extraordinary, a YA novel about faeries, Jewish history, and teen girl friendships, that I quite like (it’s technically the middle part of a trilogy but can stand on its own).
4. “Wait For It” (Hamilton)
By the time I got around to watching Hamilton on Disney+, both the fannish hype and the fannish discourse had been raging for years. I don’t have a position on whether this musical is an artistic triumph or problematic trash, but I like a lot of the songs, and “Wait For It” is probably the one I enjoy listening to the most.
5. “This Is Me” (The Greatest Showman)
I have only the vaguest idea of what this musical is about, but “This Is Me” (or, rather, the cover by MALINDA) is in my rotation of songs to play when I need a self-esteem boost.
1. “Nobody’s Side” (Chess)
My summer camp staged Chess during my last year, and while I thought that the story was pretty interesting, it was the music that especially stuck in my memory, especially this number. Not only is it lyrically and musically compelling, but it has some strong fandom associations for me, including the use of one line to title a crossover fic (“No Contract Truly Signed”) in a series that preoccupied me for the better part of a year.
2. “Confrontation” (Jekyll & Hyde)
I’ve seen this musical on stage, as well as a recording of the David Hasselhoff production, but I primarily associate this particular song with my friend Brad at karaoke gatherings.
3. “For Good” (Wicked)
My initial connection with this song – which has made me teary-eyed more than one time – was likewise through fandom: a friend of mine connected it strongly to the Ninth Doctor/Jack/Rose OT3 in Doctor Who, and when we listened to it together, I agreed. It also inspired Nancy Werlin’s Extraordinary, a YA novel about faeries, Jewish history, and teen girl friendships, that I quite like (it’s technically the middle part of a trilogy but can stand on its own).
4. “Wait For It” (Hamilton)
By the time I got around to watching Hamilton on Disney+, both the fannish hype and the fannish discourse had been raging for years. I don’t have a position on whether this musical is an artistic triumph or problematic trash, but I like a lot of the songs, and “Wait For It” is probably the one I enjoy listening to the most.
5. “This Is Me” (The Greatest Showman)
I have only the vaguest idea of what this musical is about, but “This Is Me” (or, rather, the cover by MALINDA) is in my rotation of songs to play when I need a self-esteem boost.
Thank Blog It's Friday
May. 16th, 2025 08:04 pmWearing: Black jeans, lavender tank top, pink shirt printed with big spotted cats. Today's storytime theme was "Zoo Animals."
Reading: My fascination with cults led me to pick up Blazing Eye Sees All: Love Has Won, False Prophets, and the Fever Dream of the American New Age.
Writing: I hope to start or continue some Hypnotists fic soon!
Planning: I'll be working all day tomorrow, and on Sunday, I hope to stop by the farmer's market in the morning and make some good trouble in Kendall Square in the late afternoon/evening.
What about you?
Reading: My fascination with cults led me to pick up Blazing Eye Sees All: Love Has Won, False Prophets, and the Fever Dream of the American New Age.
Writing: I hope to start or continue some Hypnotists fic soon!
Planning: I'll be working all day tomorrow, and on Sunday, I hope to stop by the farmer's market in the morning and make some good trouble in Kendall Square in the late afternoon/evening.
What about you?
These are five of the books or series that were foundational to my mind control obsession.
1. The Witch Herself (1978) by Phyllis Reynolds Naylor
The subject line of this post is from a song that recurs throughout Naylor’s “Witch” books.
I discussed this series last year, during Spooky Season, but I chose to single out this particular book (the third out of six) because it’s the one in which protagonist Lynn’s best friend, Mouse, declares her intention to be a hypnotist. After minimal study, she can put people in trances, control their actions, and access repressed memories. She also communicates with Lynn’s internal shadow self; it’s suggested that everybody has one, and that some witches - as well as an amateur hypnotist, apparently - can control these aspects of their victims by learning their secret names. (That part was, for better or for worse, also tremendously fascinating to me as a young reader.)
Mouse’s hypnotism is not part of the latter three books, in a series that is generally very smart about continuity and callbacks. The possible Watsonian reason is that she’s understandably frightened of her own power, but to the best of my recollection, it’s never even mentioned again.
2. The Ghastly Glasses (1985) by Beatrice Gormley
A psychic researcher posing as an optometrist gives young Andrea a pair of glasses that allows her to change people’s personalities when she looks through them.
This book is the sequel to Mail-Order Wings, which I haven’t read, but works pretty well as a stand-alone. It has a solid “be careful what you wish for” message and a very funny ending that would probably please cat lovers. I remember stealing one of its plot threads (minus the glasses) for my own long-ago attempt at a Psychic Kid story, about which I can unfortunately remember very little now.
3. Animorphs (1996-2001) by K.A. Applegate
Most of my peers probably at least know the hook for this series (written by spouses Katherine Applegate and Michael Grant, along with a team of ghostwriters): five kids are given the power to transform into animals in order to fight an invasion by parasitic mind-controlling aliens. Although I never actually finished reading all the books, they were overwhelmingly formative for me while I was following them, and the horror of Yeerk infestation – both from the inside, when it happens to the team leader at one point, and from the outside – was a huge part of the reason why.
4. Extreme Zone (1997-1998) by M.C. Sumner
When her father’s secret scientific research leads to his disappearance from the military base where they live, Harley teams up with Noah, a classmate suffering from nightmares of what might be an alien abduction, to investigate.
There are satisfying amounts of mind control in this series, but it also contains: conspiracies, astral projection, interdimensional travel, clairvoyant visions, cults, shapeshifting, genetic engineering and other forms of Weird Science, and lots of questions that – even though the story seems to come to some sort of conclusion in its eight-book run – are never really resolved. Given the time frame of its publication, I wouldn’t be surprised if it was partly inspired by The X-Files. And unlike Animorphs, which is a generation-defining phenomenon, I have never met another person who’s read Extreme Zone. It doesn’t fall into the category of “do I remember reading this or did I hallucinate it?” that happens sometimes with childhood favorites – you can find and buy copies online, and I held onto my own collection – but some elements of the story, which are both surreal and specific, as well as its relative obscurity and the fact that I was only ever able to find most of the books exclusively at one independent bookstore in upstate New York, make me feel like a lot of adults probably do when processing those half-formed memories of nostalgic media.
5. Daughters of the Moon (2000-2007) by Lynne Ewing
Four (later, five) teenage girls use their supernatural powers to fight a demon and its human (and not-quite-human) thralls.
As a teenager, I already recognized that these books were kind of awkwardly written, not to mention morally uneven when it came to excusable applications of mind control (it was okay when the good guys did it!), and I didn’t care. As I wrote on Tumblr some years ago, the series scratched my itch for sensual descriptions of psychic contact as well as an enemies-to-lovers romance with a tormented immortal bad boy. Even then, I knew what I liked.
1. The Witch Herself (1978) by Phyllis Reynolds Naylor
The subject line of this post is from a song that recurs throughout Naylor’s “Witch” books.
I discussed this series last year, during Spooky Season, but I chose to single out this particular book (the third out of six) because it’s the one in which protagonist Lynn’s best friend, Mouse, declares her intention to be a hypnotist. After minimal study, she can put people in trances, control their actions, and access repressed memories. She also communicates with Lynn’s internal shadow self; it’s suggested that everybody has one, and that some witches - as well as an amateur hypnotist, apparently - can control these aspects of their victims by learning their secret names. (That part was, for better or for worse, also tremendously fascinating to me as a young reader.)
Mouse’s hypnotism is not part of the latter three books, in a series that is generally very smart about continuity and callbacks. The possible Watsonian reason is that she’s understandably frightened of her own power, but to the best of my recollection, it’s never even mentioned again.
2. The Ghastly Glasses (1985) by Beatrice Gormley
A psychic researcher posing as an optometrist gives young Andrea a pair of glasses that allows her to change people’s personalities when she looks through them.
This book is the sequel to Mail-Order Wings, which I haven’t read, but works pretty well as a stand-alone. It has a solid “be careful what you wish for” message and a very funny ending that would probably please cat lovers. I remember stealing one of its plot threads (minus the glasses) for my own long-ago attempt at a Psychic Kid story, about which I can unfortunately remember very little now.
3. Animorphs (1996-2001) by K.A. Applegate
Most of my peers probably at least know the hook for this series (written by spouses Katherine Applegate and Michael Grant, along with a team of ghostwriters): five kids are given the power to transform into animals in order to fight an invasion by parasitic mind-controlling aliens. Although I never actually finished reading all the books, they were overwhelmingly formative for me while I was following them, and the horror of Yeerk infestation – both from the inside, when it happens to the team leader at one point, and from the outside – was a huge part of the reason why.
4. Extreme Zone (1997-1998) by M.C. Sumner
When her father’s secret scientific research leads to his disappearance from the military base where they live, Harley teams up with Noah, a classmate suffering from nightmares of what might be an alien abduction, to investigate.
There are satisfying amounts of mind control in this series, but it also contains: conspiracies, astral projection, interdimensional travel, clairvoyant visions, cults, shapeshifting, genetic engineering and other forms of Weird Science, and lots of questions that – even though the story seems to come to some sort of conclusion in its eight-book run – are never really resolved. Given the time frame of its publication, I wouldn’t be surprised if it was partly inspired by The X-Files. And unlike Animorphs, which is a generation-defining phenomenon, I have never met another person who’s read Extreme Zone. It doesn’t fall into the category of “do I remember reading this or did I hallucinate it?” that happens sometimes with childhood favorites – you can find and buy copies online, and I held onto my own collection – but some elements of the story, which are both surreal and specific, as well as its relative obscurity and the fact that I was only ever able to find most of the books exclusively at one independent bookstore in upstate New York, make me feel like a lot of adults probably do when processing those half-formed memories of nostalgic media.
5. Daughters of the Moon (2000-2007) by Lynne Ewing
Four (later, five) teenage girls use their supernatural powers to fight a demon and its human (and not-quite-human) thralls.
As a teenager, I already recognized that these books were kind of awkwardly written, not to mention morally uneven when it came to excusable applications of mind control (it was okay when the good guys did it!), and I didn’t care. As I wrote on Tumblr some years ago, the series scratched my itch for sensual descriptions of psychic contact as well as an enemies-to-lovers romance with a tormented immortal bad boy. Even then, I knew what I liked.
